Monday, 6 June 2016

Dear Diary: A Well Needed Break

I'm currently sat on some suave looking garden furniture writing this with my laptop perched on my knees, which are peeling to the extent that I look a bit like I've acquired a rare skin disease. I got back from the fabbiest break to Tenerife a few nights ago and even though I'm still on a bit of a Fanta Lemon comedown, the fact that the sun has followed me home and Scotland is actually sitting above 11°C is deffo softening my holiday blues (although I'm reluctant to talk about this insane weather out loud too much in fear of scaring it off cause gal got to maintain her tan).

I suppose I better take some time to explain my impromptu absence after a whole string of posts bragging that I'm going to be super productive and basically the best blogger the world's ever seen, umm whoops kind of embarrassing. After I finished Uni, I planned to take a few well needed days off to catch up on some TV and sleep, then essentially start to view writing and blogging as my full time job (whilst working around my 'real' part time job). This meant setting an alarm, actually getting out of my pyjamas and sitting down at my desk for a lil 9-5 day. As you can probably guess, those 'few' days off turned in to a few more, then a few weeks and before I knew it I'd finished all of Jane the Virgin, caught up with Made in Chelsea, re-watched every Louis Theroux documentary ever for the third time and put on four pounds, yay for productivity.

However looking back, hindsight being the 20/20 gem that it is, I think the fact that I forced myself in to thinking I had to sit down to write and view it as my job was the problem, because it's not. I love to write and I love my blog and all the little bits of admin it entails from attempting to get my head around HTML code to standing in Sainsburys holding bunting and a mini chalk board like umm will these really make my blog photos on point though?? However, it's a hobby and in what other hobby do you literally force yourself to sit down to do it even when you don't feel like it, like I will cross stitch from the hours of 8 to 6 today and I will have fun. Organised fun is never the answer kids.

So although I do really want to use my Summer to dedicate time to my blog and get loads of posts done, I think I was probably going about it the wrong way. It's almost as if I had some sort of performance anxiety (in the least dodgy way possible), where the pressure of knowing that I should be using all of this free to write posts got a bit much and my brain just sort of shut down.  Summer is about being deadline free for a little while, not imposing unrealistic ones on yourself then having a little cry because omg I was meant to write a post in the time that it took me to eat these three packets off crisps whilst watching Teen Mom. And really, will the world explode in to a million pieces if I don't post for a few days? Probably not. Will you all be bored and desperately waiting for something new to read? Again, probably not.

However, spending 8 days basking in the sun, smelling permanently like a blob of suncream and taking a step back from the Internet has worked wonders and I've come home feeling super motivated and like I've truly had a rest, which is probably really just what I needed in the first place. Plus, taking time to think things through and even just write this all down has taken some of the pressure away from feeling like I need to constantly churn out posts. It feels pretty darn nice to just be sitting here and spilling my heart out to my online gal pals once more, I've missed it.

So here's to a new start and a different, less I-have-my-life-together approach to blogging. Maybe I'll even stay in my pyjamas. Thanks for reading (and persevering!).


  1. I've been thinking alot about needing to take a holiday lately but I've just never gotten round to sorting anything. Good luck with taking your blog full time :) xxx

    Sarah / Sarah Smiles

  2. I think taking a break from everything is a great idea and something we should all do x

  3. You're not alone in this, as soon as I try and force myself to do something, I seldom stick to it but if there's a choice, or doing it or procrastinating, I usually just do it (then procrastinate a bit) lol
    - Arora xx

  4. Great to see that you have comeback refreshed and full of new energy and inspiration.

  5. Totally get where you're coming from with this - and sometimes a break is just what you need! I'm trying not to talk about the weather too much, either - it's too gorgeous <3

    Jess xo | The Indigo Hours

  6. Taking a break from blogging is always a good thing. Understandably you want to sit down and knock out a bunch of posts to be productive but at the same time you don't want to turn your fun into something you aren't interested in anymore! (:

    Single Vegas Girl

  7. I'm going away next week and can't wait, we all definitely need some time to recharge those batteries.

  8. Your post has inspired me to take a break as well. But I am so stuck with a lot nowadays.

    Khaista Blogs

  9. Yay! Glad to see you back again :) I've also been binge watching TV shows...Gossip Girl in particular ;) I need to catch up on Jane the Virgin though! I was in the same sort of blogging rut as you. A little recharge works wonders, no?


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